shout, shout, let it all out!

Sometimes I want to scream. I want to shout out loud!

I mean really SCREAM. Yell out loud without thinking about who's listening or who can hear me.

I imagine myself outside in a deserted forest, only me- screaming at the top of my lungs. For hours, until I have no voice.

I wonder if I could let it all out by screaming, if I'll feel better afterwards.

But most of the time I scream inside. It's like there is a small person inside me kicking and screaming and letting it all go in order for me to go on. Cause there's no other way right? I need to keep going. I need to.

Is it OK for me to want to scream? YES

Is it OK for me to want to cry? YES

It's SO very hard being strong, holding on. Being the parent that he needs me to be.

It's not only OK for me to want to- it's also OK for me to scream. And cry. And ask for help. And to need help. And to be upset. It's OK. It's more than OK.

So' if you know of a forest for "wanting to scream special mums" please let me know… and you can also join me….